I was in a house in the second floor. There was a beautiful Indian woman and her old white mother. They were both bullying me. The young woman stopped when I told her to, but the old wouldn't. I threatened violence, she still wouldn't stop. So I choked her, she still lived, so I broke her skull. That finally killed her. I wanted to remove her body and clean up, but when I touched it it turned into a deflatable plastic, like the sextoy inflatable doll. I put it into the basement and talked to the daughter, explained that I'll now turn myself in to the police for the murder. I asked Rich for a lift there, but he actually found a female lawyer for me. I instructed her to plead not guilty for temporary insanity due to autism, and I felt like I'll probably get away with it. Last scene was the court room. André came in, I was happy to see him and hugged him. He mechanically hugged me back. I explained that I killed someone and in case I go to jail I'd need him to take care of my business. He just stared back at me blankly, didn't respond. I thought he regretted that I felt this safe with him.
This dream may reflect feelings of powerlessness and being oppressed in some aspect of your waking life. The presence of the beautiful Indian woman and her old white mother could symbolize authority figures or influences that have been asserting control over you. The fact that the young woman stopped bullying you when you stood up for yourself suggests that you may have gained some courage and assertiveness in dealing with certain situations. However, the old woman's refusal to stop may indicate unresolved conflicts or obstacles that continue to challenge you.
The act of choking and ultimately killing the old woman in the dream may not necessarily represent literal violence, but rather a symbolic representation of your desire to remove the influence or control that person or situation has over you. The subsequent transformation of the body into a deflatable plastic doll suggests a sense of emptiness or unreality associated with this particular individual or the power they held over you.
The decision to turn yourself in and seek legal counsel in the dream may symbolize a desire for resolution and a willingness to confront the consequences of your actions or the situation at hand. Asking for assistance from Rich and then being provided with a female lawyer could represent support and guidance from others in dealing with these challenges.
The final scene in the courtroom, where you interact with André, indicates a sense of seeking emotional support and understanding from someone you trust. However, his blank response may portray a feeling of disappointment or a lack of empathy from this person, possibly reflecting a fear of judgment or rejection in your waking life.
Overall, this dream may be highlighting your struggle to break free from oppressive influences and assert your own power and autonomy. It may also suggest a need for understanding and support from those close to you as you navigate through challenging circumstances.