A childhood friend wanted to plan a murder on a pastor that I know that happened to live on the street that I grew up on. I assisted her in planning but nothing else. They discover that he is dead the next morning and I hold my end really good, but my friend, who isn't a good actor, becomes prime suspect. We both become really nervous. But I still hold regular conversations with his family, people I free up with. At his funeral, he finally sits up to show that he isn't dead and my friend is now really nervous. I'm relieved when she is arrested and never snitches on me or implicate me in any manner.
This dream seems to contain elements of betrayal, guilt, fear, and relief. Here is a possible interpretation:
The childhood friend in your dream represents a part of yourself or a person from your past who holds negative or destructive tendencies. Planning a murder with her may symbolize engaging in harmful or malicious thoughts and actions. However, the fact that you only assist in planning but take no further actions suggests that deep down, you have some reservations or sense of morality that prevents you from fully embracing this darkness.
The pastor living on the street you grew up on may symbolize a figure of authority and spirituality. Perhaps there is a part of you that is questioning or feeling conflicted about the values or teachings represented by this authority figure.
The discovery of the pastor's death and your ability to hold your end well in the face of suspicion may reflect your ability to maintain composure and hide your true intentions or thoughts in waking life. It suggests that you have some capacity to navigate difficult situations and project a facade of innocence or normalcy.
The regular conversations with the pastor's family and other people you free up with indicates that you maintain communication and connection with those who are close to the values represented by the pastor. This could suggest that your core beliefs or upbringing continue to influence your interactions and relationships.
The pastor sitting up at his funeral and your friend becoming nervous symbolizes a reversal of expectations. It may suggest that the perceived authority figure or belief system that you were planning to harm may still have a significant impact or influence in your life. This realization may make your friend, representing the negative tendencies within you, even more anxious and uncomfortable.
The relief you feel when your friend is arrested without implicating you could indicate a sense of release from the guilt or fear associated with engaging in negative thoughts or actions. It may suggest that you are grateful for not being fully entangled in destructive behavior and that you can move forward with a renewed sense of freedom or clarity.
Overall, this dream suggests a struggle between conflicting thoughts or desires within yourself. It serves as a reminder to reconsider harmful tendencies and embrace the values that align with your moral compass. It also emphasizes the importance of maintaining genuine connections with others and being true to yourself even in challenging situations.