Trying to find my dad, I came across a black brickwall in a dark place, the black brock wall appeared wet and tar like in feel, there were black open square holes that were doorways in the brick wall and big eyes watching me from them, I felt scared, I found my dad and entered into one of those passageways that led me to a kitchen, it was a small dark kitchen and small home, it was filthy and there were cockroaches running over the bench, i felt clostrophobic and grossed out by the roaches so I flicked one off and he said I told you not to touch the cockroaches and then cockroaches came out of nowhere to attack me. I then wok up.
Dreams can have subjective meanings based on the personal experiences and emotions of the dreamer. However, the interpretation of the dream you described could be as follows:
The dream of trying to find your dad represents a subconscious desire to connect with and seek support from a significant figure in your life. The black brick wall indicates obstacles or unresolved emotions that hinder this connection. The wet and tar-like texture suggests that these obstacles or emotions may feel overwhelming or difficult to tackle.
The black open square holes in the brick wall represent opportunities or potential pathways to find your dad. However, the big eyes watching you symbolize a feeling of being observed or judged, which contributes to your fear and hesitance.
Finding your dad and entering one of the passageways symbolizes a breakthrough in your search for support. However, the small dark kitchen and filthy home suggest a sense of confinement and emotional burden. The presence of cockroaches represents feelings of disgust or resentment associated with this environment or situation.
Flicking off the cockroach and being told not to touch them by your dad may symbolize your attempt to distance yourself from negative emotions or experiences. However, the sudden attack of the cockroaches suggests that these negative aspects are persistent and may require a different approach to resolve.
Overall, the dream may indicate a deep desire to connect with your father or seek support, but also highlights the presence of obstacles, negative emotions, and a need to find healthier ways to address and resolve them.