in a cloudy grey day, i am having a corpse wearing all white excluding the boots are brown in my drawer, the corpse has an open chest which you can the organs therfore the blood is covering the corpse's face, i was holding a knife in my left hand and i've cutted my right hand with it right above that corpse, my hand got healed but not replaced right after that, suddenly my family came home and shout my name so i closed my drawer, after that i saw myself with two big bags full of blood holding them my both hands going outside home i guess going to git rid of them
This dream seems to reflect deep feelings of guilt, unresolved emotions, and a desire to keep certain aspects of yourself hidden from others.
The cloudy grey day represents a sense of gloom and emotional turmoil. The corpse wearing all white except for the brown boots may symbolize a part of yourself that you have tried to cleanse or distance yourself from, but haven't completely succeeded in doing so. The open chest and visible organs with blood covering the face could represent your innermost vulnerabilities and unresolved emotional pain.
Your act of cutting your right hand with a knife above the corpse suggests a self-destructive tendency driven by guilt or an unconscious desire to punish yourself. However, the fact that your hand heals but is not replaced right away suggests that you may possess a resilience or ability to recover from damaging experiences.
The sudden arrival of your family and their shouting your name represents the intrusion of external influences or social expectations on your inner struggles. Closing the drawer implies the desire to conceal your true self or those disturbing aspects from your family and possibly from others.
The next scene with two big bags full of blood that you are carrying in your hands suggests a burden of guilt or unresolved emotions that you are actively trying to discard or get rid of. This may indicate a longing for catharsis or a need to release these burdensome feelings in order to find emotional freedom or healing.
Overall, this dream suggests that you may be grappling with guilt, attempting to hide certain aspects of yourself, and yearning for emotional release. It could be beneficial to explore these emotions further and consider seeking support or guidance to navigate through these unresolved feelings.