In 2000, My step dad Jamie bullied me into selling my home then I did and I moved into a home next door but the stay there was terrible. He took a lot of his problems out on me and then to my sons. This was in the years 2000 to year 2006. Iv been the scapegoat in my family for many years and see a Psychotherapist for over 20 years. She tried to interfere what Jamie was doing but she was busy taking care of me. Today iv heard Jamie wanted to get in touch with everyone in my family. My mum also Jamie in telling me to sell my home and today, I wrote her a very openhearted letter telling her although in over it this is what she did. In the dream - In the dream, My oldest brother Greg was coming back to Perth where I live but my boyfriend Craig was too. my boyfriend from when I was 16. I wouldn't sleep with him because I didn't want to lose my virginity. In the dream, We were about to board a small zippy boat that we boarded on for a quiet party After the boat drew up to the bay to pull up to the boat place, Greg told me he was meeting up with two or three women friends but I wasn't invited. They didn't like me before the car accident and they still don't. I was feeling very frustrated. I felt frustrated Craig wouldn't talk to me and I wasnt allowed to spend time with Greg and these 3-4 women friends. There were many other old friends from when I was 16 as well. I felt that they didn't have an experience of me. They didn't understand me. I was devestated. I was crying. At the same time, Craig worked out he was gay and he switched off to me and was following a lot of men down to a gay sex bar. I was trying to get his attention but he was only focused on the gay men he was involved with.
This dream seems to reflect feelings of exclusion, frustration, and a sense of being misunderstood. The presence of your stepfather Jamie in the dream may symbolize past experiences of being bullied and mistreated by him, which could still be affecting you psychologically. The dream may be highlighting your desire for validation and acceptance from your family members, particularly your mother, as indicated by her involvement in pressuring you to sell your home in the dream.
The appearance of your oldest brother Greg and your boyfriend Craig from when you were 16 may represent significant relationships from your past. The fact that you didn't want to sleep with Craig in the dream because you didn't want to lose your virginity suggests a fear of vulnerability and potential loss. The frustration and sadness you feel upon learning that you are not invited to spend time with Greg and his female friends may reflect a sense of being excluded or left out in real life.
The revelation that Craig is gay and his subsequent disinterest in you could symbolize a feeling of being overlooked or replaced. This could further contribute to your emotional distress in the dream. Overall, this dream might indicate a deep yearning for connection, understanding, and acceptance from those around you. It could also suggest a need for healing from past emotional wounds and finding a sense of self-worth that is not dependent on others' opinions or actions.