I had a dream that the man I had an affair with I was with him and we were kissing a lot and he just said I love you so much and I said I am so in love with you too. He told the woman he was dating that I was the woman in the group of friends that he wanted to spend the most time with and that I was from New Jersey. He said I was a Jersey girl when we were having sex. She wanted me to put my fingers up his butt. I went away for a little bit and came back and he had his fingers up his ass and had a direction, we went to a pool together and we put the water to a warm temperature and turn the lights down. People were complementing the music we were playing in the dream I felt guilty only for a moment that it would cheating and after becoming intimate I didn’t feel guilty anymore . He didn’t text me for several hours in the dream afterwards, and I felt anxious.
This dream appears to be a reflection of your emotions and desires related to your affair with this man. The intense kissing and professions of love indicate a strong emotional connection between you two. The mention of you being the woman he wants to spend the most time with and being from New Jersey suggests that he holds a special place for you in his life. The sexual encounter and the mention of your fingers going up his butt may symbolize a need for intimacy and exploration in your physical relationship.
The pool scene, with warm water and dimmed lights, represents a desire for comfort and relaxation in your connection with this man. The compliments on the music may symbolize the enjoyment and satisfaction you both feel when you're together. The brief moment of guilt could possibly stem from societal expectations or, given the context of the dream, a fear of being caught or exposed.
The anxiety you feel when he doesn't text you for several hours in the dream may indicate a fear of not receiving the attention and validation you desire from him. It's possible that the dream reflects your concerns about the stability and consistency of your relationship with him.
It is important to note that dream interpretation is subjective, and only you can truly determine the personal meanings and significance behind the symbols and events in your dream.