05-13-23 dream 2: Can’t remember much of this dream, except that I had split off from my family during a roadtrip, and I later ended up in the house of this random proprietrix within her houseparty. I remember us talking about this new DOOM movie, and how all the demons were played by humans in face paint. This went on for a while, until someone said “9/11 must’ve went crazy in the doom universe. Was it a cacodemon hitting the twin towers?” And for some reason, this made me burst into laughter. The proprietrix was not amused though, giving me a dirty look as she started to speak to me like her handmaiden, and she had me start fixing her broken electronics instead of treating me as a smoking buddy. I asked her why she was mad, and she just vaguely would insinuate that she had family in 9/11 that got hurt/killed. I tried to lighten the mood with more pedestrian jokes, but no dice. Over the next hour, I kept trying to get drinks or to pass the pipe, but she would refuse until I did my labor to repent. I remember I somehow accidentally broke her Mac book screen with my fingers, and 2 giant black fingerprints were eternally bleeding an opaque void of broken liquid crystals across the screen. I then tried to fix her phone, but the screen had innumerable spider web cracks that I could t replace. I tried the best I could though, and she passed me a bolo loaded with a lot of crank, and she told me about an opportunity that I could be her live-in-maid and nanny for the children. I jumped at the opportunity, and she made me sign a contract. I signed it in my female common law name, and she pocketed it. I then was placed in a maid outfit, still allowed to keep the pipe in my apron pocket for me to use as needed, but she then started ordering me to serve her party guests. I could address them all however I wanted unless they were her relatives, but I had to address her and her husband as mistress/master, respectively. I remember I cleaned for quite a bit, making drinks and food for the party guests. Until then, I started to get really tired, so I went into a closet and took several big hits from the pipe. Feeling energized, I went out again and started making pretzel fingers in cheese sauce, and sweet & sour spiders on a stick. I finished the pretzel fingers without any issue, but when I tried making the spiders on a stick, I kept seeing small hornets and house flies harassing my sweet & sour sauce. I couldn’t find the bug spray, so I had to pick them out manually and throw them in the sink. After then putting a lid on the sauce, I ran out of the room calling “oh Mistress! Where is the can of bug spray?” I heard her reply, but I wasn’t quite able to make it out, so I decided to run up the stairs towards her bedroom. I quickly found the master bedroom door, looking strangely wood and heavy, resembling an antique in contrast to the rest of the house. I then flung it wide open, only to see her in there changing from her fancy party attire, into a set of more sultry burgundy lingerie adorned with a few gold-threaded & nightshade-colored ribbons, as a black nightgown lay next to her. This was the last coherent visual I remember seeing, and I woke up in my bed immediately after. I awoke thirsty and disoriented this morning, almost feeling confused from the events of the dream. My recall was a lot less potent than it usually is, probably because this dream happened during a midday nap. I would say, however, that my hormones feel fine now. In general my mood is rather middling, yet also happy because of me being both a cute little maid and a valued houseparty guest in this dream, I’d say. Makes me feel more feminine, somehow. FIN.
Dream interpretation can be a fascinating exploration into the subconscious mind, revealing hidden emotions, desires, and conflicts. Your dream presents a rich tapestry of symbols and themes to unpack.
Separation from Family: The dream begins with you splitting off from your family during a road trip. This suggests a desire for autonomy and perhaps a need to explore your individuality. It may reflect feelings of wanting to break away from familial expectations or norms, leading to a pursuit of personal identity.
Unexpected Hostess and Houseparty: Encountering a random proprietrix at a houseparty reflects an exploration of social dynamics. This woman perhaps embodies aspects of authority or control, indicating a desire to navigate social situations where you feel somewhat subordinate, yet involved. Since her role is more regal or powerful, it may resonate with feelings regarding how you perceive relationships in your life, especially those that require you to serve or please others.
The DOOM Movie Discussion: The conversation about the demons in the movie may symbolize a confrontation with darker aspects of life, such as trauma and loss. It also connects to humor as a coping mechanism, where laughter can be a way to deal with uncomfortable topics. Your laughter at the shocking comment about 9/11 implies a complexity in handling sensitive subjects, perhaps showcasing a personal struggle with discussing grief or tragedy.
Imposing Authority and Labor: The proprietrix's turn from friend to demanding figure may symbolize feelings of being judged or needing to earn approval through submission or labor. The mechanics of fixing broken electronics can stand for attempts to mend parts of your own life or relationships, but the subsequent damage (the broken MacBook and the spider-web-cracked phone screens) suggests a fear of inadequacy and the inability to fully repair what’s broken.
Maid as a Role: The shift into a maid role emphasizes servitude and perhaps a longing for nurture or acceptance. It juxtaposes your perceived femininity (as you describe feeling more feminine) against the notion of submission. Signing a contract in your female common law name might hint at an exploration of personal identity beyond societal regulations, emphasizing how you view your role in relationships.
Food Production and Bugs: Your efforts in preparing food that becomes interrupted by bugs reflects the tension between creativity and unexpected disruptions in your life. The hornets and houseflies could symbolize irritations or obstacles that prevent you from enjoying your tasks. Your determination to solve this by searching for bug spray signifies resilience in addressing problems, even if solutions are not immediately evident.
The Bedroom Scene: The climax where you find the proprietrix undressing connects to themes of intimacy, vulnerability, and perhaps hidden desires. The transition into her intimate clothing may hint at a desire for deeper connections, or the allure of femininity tied to roles of seduction versus subservience. The dream leaves you in a suspenseful state, signifying perhaps unresolved feelings or unanswered questions about identity and relationships.
Awaking from the dream, you describe feelings of disorientation but also happiness. This duality may reflect inner conflicts where the roles you are exploring (the feminine maid and the valued party guest) coexist with discomfort from the complexities of feelings around power dynamics, authority, and intimacy.
Overall, this dream seems to encapsulate your ongoing exploration of identity, gender roles, authority, and the interplay between autonomy and service. It highlights a tension between wanting to connect with others while also feeling compelled to navigate through personal challenges. It may be worth reflecting on your recent experiences and feelings surrounding your family, authority figures, and your sense of self, particularly how you wish to express your femininity and individuality in social contexts. The dream invites consideration of how humor, sexuality, and duty weave through your life and relationships, ultimately urging you to honor your complex emotional landscape.